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Despondent by Design

by Loathe

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    “This is Malta’s Loathe, a hardworking band - they’ve battled through the changing times and have found a comfortable seat, right between Bloodbath and Carcass.” [Terrorizer Magazine]

    “To be fair to Loathe, they are better than so many of the new bands I have heard recently.” [www.rock-city.co.uk]

    “.......With this release Loathe should be brought to the attentions of labels rapidly, mostly owing to the material and the brutality of the mix that leaves no question as to the power of the songs.......” [www.metal-observer.com]

    'Despondent By Design' is Loathe's sophomore full length album, released on Casket Records. Ten tracks of crushing metal and full colour sleeve.

    Comes in transparent back CD jewel case and 8 page inner sleeve, with lyrics and liner notes. Artwork by Clint Tabone and Cedric Vella.

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1.
Hellfire 04:12
The sick sweet smell of that perfume Takes me back to that night Driving high determined to make it right Driving straight towards our Hell The way you glowed Showed me the way that I must go Your lips so sweet Like fucking slabs of stale concrete Pre-Chorus I still can't believe what you made me do Fear of losing you will guide me thru Chorus From now on Your soul belongs to me In my world You shall not be free Making love in a pool of blood we signed the dotted line Handover All your life to me (Your eternity) The cold blue steel seemed to match so right With the crimson that we shed that night Powered by jealousy and fright With the mess that we made Beauty so sweet A bitter choice of Satan's treat The lust for flesh Turned this to one big fucking mess Pre-Chorus Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned And owns all its Hellfire to a selfish man Repeat Chorus Begging down on all fours Bloodied tools surround our ritual floor Your spouse's blood for lubrication We enter Hells deepest tribulation Repeat Chorus w/ Your Eternity
2.
As Cold As They come I could never dream your damage would become part of me one day Sunk so deep within me that I dread it will always stay Did you ever ask yourself what would become to this scapegoat when you leave? Sealing my grave with your own debris just so you could be set free Pre-chorus What good would it do just to tell you? It's been killing me for these years So here's my holy confession Just so you know... Chorus 1 One last time for the sweetest memory What else is it going to take to set this dead soul free? Every man's dread you made reality my cross to bear for life Tolerating your world so full of shit just to blow up in my face Pre-chorus The endless praising you needed The mockery you gave in return Incapable of appreciation Your curse I feel it burn... Chorus 2 One last time for the sweetest memory What else is it going to take to set this dead soul free? Did you ever just stop to wonder how I stuck with you through all them years? You were once all in my life...now my darkest fear Bridge Years of lies and woeful cries are embedded in my brain I can't wipe clean the memory of your sick contagious pain This boy you left so broken you abused and threw away But will those who are truly responsible ever get to pay? It`ll be the coldest day in hell when you find peace my dear Just pray to remain dormant its best for you that things ain't clear Cos if you ever awake your slumber Shake out of it somehow Screams in vain will fill your days Your God wonít save you now Repeat 2nd Chorus
3.
November 04:22
November Raindrops of sadness ruined the once blue perfect sky Colors turned to black and grey, tears were trapped in time A sudden blow of fate that leaves you with too much said undone Called onto the other side when your life had just begun Pre Chorus Had just begun Angels healed your broken wings To fly Away from your affliction Chorus There was this immense glow of beauty That used to shine right thru your eyes And if I knew I'd be the last to see I'd have still given you all my time Chains of memories still haunt me As you left wounds inside my flesh I hope I made your world shine brighter Throughout our days of last caress Sometimes I still see your face in winter's rain And how you chose to share with me your happiness and pain So much that I wish I said and things we should've done An uncompleted episode when you check-out when you're young You were so young... Pre chorus and Chorus Check-out time came way too soon... You've fallen like a leaf of brightest green Blown away to a place that's only in our dreams You see I told you you`ll be fine Now I'm the one who's got left behind Angels healed your broken wings... Repeat Chorus
4.
Stressed right out of my fucking head if I could just have a little more time Days go by like flashing lights since I left who I was behind Never in a million God forsaken years could I accept to believe it was real Just get me right off of this fucking ride I'm afraid about the way that I feel "What you saw was a glimpse of heaven that could never in this life be real..." once again...in the devils playground... You can never know what it's like and you can never point, judge or assume Each and everyone's got a hell to burn and this one's mine with impending doom Yes dreams are there to be shattered and our hope lies on a crumbling wall But I'd rather much feel like shit everyday than motherfucking feel nothing at all "Not everybody was meant to feel what others seem to be happy with..." once again...in the devils playground... And then an angel came and picked me up and told me it would be safe to love again, then walked away...and broke my heart Nooooo.... So you think the pain lessens with age...it don't So cry...get to know your inner self Don't lie...most especially to yourself Try to find what's hidden inside that's all that I'm trying to do And staring thru your lifeless eyes just sometimes pulls me thru It just fucking sometimes pulls me thru... It takes away the pain...keeps me sane... once again...in the devils playground... It just fucking helps me thru...
5.
Black Light 03:44
One might wonder why I even bother to sometimes write down the way I feel... Well let me tell you straight away I don't do it for you in any way Nor do I care the slightest what you think I just couldn't give a fuck... It helps me deal with my pain Keeps my demons in a cage Controls my suicidal rage Chorus; This hope that keeps me hanging on When it is lost I will be gone In darkness I will find a way Strange and scary when I'm weak and weary that I truly envy those who got away... How could you judge or criticize The life that flashed before their eyes Point your finger, shift the blame It just proves that you're a fool... It makes no difference anyway Life was theirs to take away It never matters what you say Repeat Chorus Only those who came so close will live to tell the only truth Darkness will become the light X2 Light becomes my darkest night X2 What is hidden inside of me is just dying to get out Darkness will become the light X2 Light becomes my darkest night X2 ...tonight... Have we chosen the sinister way of life? ...Rain on me... Look deep inside these eyes of mine and is it darkness that you see? Or do I hold the stare of sadness of a world that's so unreal? I know that most of you who love me will probably miss me when I'm gone But those who knew me well will admit that I'm finally much better off
6.
I bet you wish these motherfuckers will surely burn in hell Cindy was only six years old when she already had seen it all Left abused raped torn and used from the one who should`ve showed her love Nausea-the sickness Every day is hell Suffer-the torment Where are you God? Hold her down while I fill her mouth so her mother won't hear her scream If you ever tell a living soul I`ll gut you like a pig Every day is hell... Butch came home from school one day to find his mother lying on the bed She forced his face between her legs and made him give her head This went on for five long years till she felt like leaving home She left her little fuck-toy scared abandoned and all alone Chorus Father, what have I done? To deserve this misery This monster that I've become It burns, it's changing me Cindy came back home one day to butcher her old man and sign her life to psychoville Butch is six feet under Hacked up with her knife Hacked to fucking pieces Repeat chorus
7.
This Respect 03:35
This Respect It don't take that much to just say something, just words put perfectly into place... some people just use them as a punch line... Some things just make me mad and add to my frustration Don't wanna preach to you won't give no explanations just what I feel sometimes when you say the things you do Still I could be wrong you know it could be ludicrous or truth Pre Chorus Never - your words don't impress me Forever - it's all just a joke to me Chorus This respect that you speak of don't really make that sense to me This respect that you speak of sounds like disrespect to me And most of all it don't apply to everyone, sometimes I don't have respect... I don't respect those motherfuckers I wish fucking dead... For those that I have respect and keep close to my heart In a way so deep and true that when it dies I fall apart You see life has a funny way of shifting some to the other side And on comes the frustration, the betrayal, respect dies Repeat Pre Chorus and Chorus What's the point you're trying to make? What the hell are you trying to prove? Do you really think that life's that long to waste on silly childhood moves? And to those who never ever talked to me And basically hate my guts You've got deep mental issues guys and I think your fucking nuts Chorus This Respect - Disrespect This Respect - Disrespect
8.
I can tell you feel it deep inside your heart That suffocating feeling that makes us fall apart Reaching out for that false hope that life throws in our way I wish I can assure you that we`ll make it home one day Cold as winter's snow From here to the unknown This hell that we share Blinds my way cuts deep inside me It's bedded deep within Grows stronger from our sins Blackening my soul Letting loose my wildest demon Chorus I feel this void around you it pierces me so deep inside my soul Can't fight this feeling so I hide myself until I lose control From way beyond it tries to end me I can see it get darker every day If you've never been there you won't believe me I know that deep inside you feel the same (we share the same) (you share my pain) We beg for those distractions that make us feel less pain Overload our butchered hearts with regret and shame Feeling safe in darkness we steer clear from the light Anything to help us thru this long cold lonely night Numb we lay to rest cast aside our mess A short lived granted peace If only it could last forever Face the day with fear The Demons drawing near Strapped down for the ride Terrified of where it takes me Repeat chorus In case you care to wonder The various paths to go Once you lived your life this way it's the only way you know I know that you point your finger Say I'm the one to blame And I don't deny that sometimes I feel more myself this way But none of you know how hard I try even when my days go fucking darker And that's the only reason that I'm still here Or else I would be six feet under And I see the sadness in your eyes and I can tell that you dread tomorrow So if there ain't no fucking love for us in this world why don't we share each other's sorrow Repeat chorus.
9.
Get to know the pain within your soul One step closer to the twilight zone Don't be afraid to face your fears It is fucking easy for you to say that Blessed hope will come from tears But I'm drowning in this sea of sorrow Can't apply the words you say Expect dark if you call the darkness Do you really think I wanna play this game? You Can't live within the darkness Within the Darkness... Chorus All the choices that you`ll ever make The haunting of past memories and mistakes I've made I can almost touch the sadness I`ll never make it on my own I need someone to guide me No you're on your own I'm on my own... You're part of one big master plan A bad example so you can show your children Weigh each moment well and think I think too fucking much and it's becoming a problem Dragging thru more twisted days You`ll get sucked down by the sickness How the fuck can I change my ways? There's no love within the sickness You won't love within the sickness I Can't love within this sickness Repeat Chorus I'm on my own... You're on your own... I'm on my own... Nothing, No one Can keep you from yourself But hide away in anger And you`ll become someone else Only God can show you light Will you please fucking leave God out of this? Hold on to that spark of hope It's what I always wished never existed Repeat Chorus
10.
Lurking, hiding, never seen I was born to create your anger For centuries I lay dormant Killing all hope you had in dreams I abrupt through innocence Dominate your life Obscure - Unheard What you thought was hidden away will never ever remain that way It never was and will always be - Feel the wrath of my Legacy Chorus I will cause you so much pain And silence all your children Baptize your days with lifelong hate The untold has finally spoken (My reign will last forever) I will take this secret with me to the grave - it's what must be done... No - I can release you, I must release myself from this curse... Son there's no releasing me... Ingrained - Disguised To sacrifice what's left of a life to leave the past unspoken Risking an end of shattered pride your fate can now be chosen Repeat Chorus The silence of a lifetime Oh the weight that you must feel Absolution has become so distant Will your final steps be the most painful path that you will take Sever the bloodline - Your final fight And help us re-claim back our lives Repeat Chorus

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This is Despondent by Design, Loathe's first full length album, with 10 hard-hitting metal tracks for your headbanging enjoyment.

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released July 27, 2009

David Fenech, Karl Cachia, Kurt Pace, Mark Debono & Max Vassallo

Mixed & mastered by: David Vella, Temple Studios Malta.

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This is Loathe, Malta's premier metal band. Formed in 2001, Loathe has gone from strength to strength with every release, culminating in 2009's album 'Despondent By Design'. In 2013, Loathe released an EP called 'Lambs To The Slaughter' featuring the band's heaviest material to date. Loathe has toured the UK and shared stages with bands such as Evile, Detonation, SLAB, Morgue Orgy and Sabbat. ... more

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